Ok. i won't do anything else now, you can say whatever you want about me, i'll tell people the truth and not gonna lie about anything but i will never tell them what you did. I can never bash you, can't say what you done or how you really were sometimes. You might get angry reading this or might never read this at all but what are you angry about, if you think you didn't do anything wrong. You think things you did weren't as bad for me? not trying to play any type of role, i am the cause of this ,at the end i know it was my fault, i gave it the final blow but now i drown myself and spend time really understanding and thinking to be able to mend myself to someone better, To a better Amancio. Don't go into things to make you feel type of way for a short amount of time. I might not be a position to say things but you have alot to learn from our relationship too, not on me but from yourself. i say it with love not with hate. That's why i will never say that you did any wrong cause i'm not that type of person and all i can hope is that we both learn and maybe who know, i know we are still young. At the end i messed up and i fully lost your trust in that moment and i understand, may you hate me forever and never ever wanna see me again ok. At the end of course i know im a horrible person, trust me i hate me too but not everything i did makes it what you say. Your not perla, and you can say whatever you want now, may years pass by and you think about this and laugh, happy to be your first and i will always be here and again who knows maybe in the future you realize it.

i'll be the fool who is still here.